Tuesday, September 4, 2007
Wish your heart was a heart of stone ...
They had relation for 3 years ... Actually it was strange kind of relation ... For the first year they lived together, unless the other has decided to move in Italy, they loved each other, planned to build their future together in a new country, having their new life ...
Two years have passed, they saw each other 3 weeks in a year, because the one who left there couldn't leave everything immediately, but they had plans ...
It was their first vacation together after almost 3 years, they were in Venice, the evening was warm, they were sitting on a small wooden berth for gondolas under a small ancient lantern, the full moon was reflected on the calm mirror of lagoon's dark water giving peace and calmness to everything around, even small boats that were illuminated seemed to slow down their move in that evening harmony.
One from the guys embraced another and was talking about their 3 years of anniversary together, and how it would be great to celebrate their 5th anniversary in Paris, he asked his boy-friend to embrace him and said how much he loved him.
While they were sitting there in the head of the other there was a mess, he wanted to runaway from that bridge, he was afraid of what he was thinking, he wanted to cry ... awful ... he didn't felt the same way that the other guy felt, he couldn't emrace him, because it would be an embrace of a lie, because in his mind he doubted, he hated himself for not being able to answer his dear friend the way he wanted, the way he would answer a year ago, but he also couldn't destroy that moment that meant everything for another, that the other guy dreamed for a year, that should be one from their most romantic moments together...
The other guy gave him an amorous look and pressed closer to him, his friend looked at him and slowly embraced him, he was betrayer ... Juda in front of Jesus ... something has died inside of him ...
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