!!!This Thing You Cann't Miss!!!

Finally it's happened, Tom Ford my second most desired man had stripped in male company!

I wonder what it could be like having Tom Ford and Todd Sanfield in my bed toghether ...

Wish your heart was a heart of stone ...

They had relation for 3 years ... Actually it was strange kind of relation ... For the first year they lived together, unless the other has decided to move in Italy, they loved each other, planned to build their future together in a new country, having their new life ...

Two years have passed, they saw each other 3 weeks in a year, because the one who left there couldn't leave everything immediately, but they had plans ...

It was their first vacation together after almost 3 years, they were in Venice, the evening was warm, they were sitting on a small wooden berth for gondolas under a small ancient lantern, the full moon was reflected on the calm mirror of lagoon's dark water giving peace and calmness to everything around, even small boats that were illuminated seemed to slow down their move in that evening harmony.

One from the guys embraced another and was talking about their 3 years of anniversary together, and how it would be great to celebrate their 5th anniversary in Paris, he asked his boy-friend to embrace him and said how much he loved him.

While they were sitting there in the head of the other there was a mess, he wanted to runaway from that bridge, he was afraid of what he was thinking, he wanted to cry ... awful ... he didn't felt the same way that the other guy felt, he couldn't emrace him, because it would be an embrace of a lie, because in his mind he doubted, he hated himself for not being able to answer his dear friend the way he wanted, the way he would answer a year ago, but he also couldn't destroy that moment that meant everything for another, that the other guy dreamed for a year, that should be one from their most romantic moments together...

The other guy gave him an amorous look and pressed closer to him, his friend looked at him and slowly embraced him, he was betrayer ... Juda in front of Jesus ... something has died inside of him ...

Any good? May be, yesss...

Summing up last week, since I've decided to stop my slut period, I'm wondering whether the situation has changed to any good...

Well, there wasn't any casual sex, and I'm not feeling bad, I can say, but instead I've started to look through all this kinda porn blogs/sites almost all the first part of my entire day at work. I can do nothing about it, but I do feel necessity to see naked men gorgeous bodies, and may be some action also 8-), it's like when you start eating pop corn, you just can't stop till it's finished, so am I, I just can't stop till lunch break almost...

And since it's the beginning of the vacation time, it often happened to me to be alone in the office, so when I was chatting one hot guy, he switched on his cam, oh yesss he was hot and almost naked at first, after a while he was completely naked, with a perfect shaped butt and great great hard cock, which he began to jerk-off, and he was very good at it, and as all normal 22 year I've already had a hard on too, that should have been worked out, 'cause I wanted to fuck that guy just right on my desk (he lived a bit distant from my work, pity), I also wouldn't be against of if he fucked me than... we also ended-up the same time that kinda made us perfect cyber-sex couple :-)))

well, it was my first cyber-sex experience at work, and it felt just great, as I found out later I forgot to close my door, so smn. could enter, and it made feel it even more interesting.

That's how the week began, and it last almost the same the other days, the door still open ;-), so now I begin to feel kinda Pavlov's dog, when I sit in my chair in front of my computer I begin to feel horny.

Well, I think I'll leave my slut period doing small steps...

10 Things To Do Before I Die

May be it's a little bit early to ask myself such kind of a question or may be it's just a time to define main goals in my life, or just a wish list to follow, but I ask myself this question very often recently ... so let's try.
Well, the biggest desire right now is to do bungee jumping but it's a little stupid to give the first place to it so let's give it 10th.
Then, well in three I've done it and not only once, on the open-air - I've done it, on the beach - I've done it ... nooo let's cancel sex from the wish list, it's too miserable (OMG I've told it??? I think my slut period is coming to an end, I'm recovering, great!!!)

Here it is!

10. Bungee jumping

9. To have perfect six-pack - it's seems to me I'm working out really hard on my abs, but all that I managed to do is something like two-pack and a half :-/

8. To visit Maya pyramids - I think they're really impressive!!! I really like travelling, so I won't include all the places I'm going to visit, 'cause it would be like "100 Things To Do Before I Die", there are Biking in The Loire Valley, a month at Tibetan temple, going through Europe by car and a lot more...

7. To build my typical Tuscan outside futuristic inside house here in Tuscany according to my own project- it's a really great place to live here, magnificent views, perfect climate, great art heritage and a gay resort, what else can you desire

6. To meet Cher even for 10 secs, it would be enough for me to take picture with her and say to her HUGE TNX for being in my life

5. To make my super successful ad-campaign - I really feel it's my thing to do.

4.To educate people not to be homophobic, oh how I hate this thing!!! Tnx my parents, my coming out was rather calm and, I hope, more or less hurtless for them, but it's so terrible to feel that they don't know about you yet, that they will reject you, even though they didn't give you a possibility to think like this, but living in a homophobic world makes you feel like this, it's terrible and it really hurts me when I see others suffer about this thing (well i think I dedicate another post for this topic)

3. To feel real love, oh I'd love to feel myself "innamorato perso", it seems to be great being crazy about guy that you really appreciate and when he is crazy about you and when it feels almost everyday like this, may be I'm a bit perfectionist, but I need a dream... Dov'è L'amore?

2. To build mine Empire, to be more exactly business kind of Empire. No, no ... I won't leave this world without a trace, it will be notable trace, I'm sure!!!

And the best for last!!! Drums, please!!!

1. To have a son, no 2 I want twins (my friend promised them to me, ciao Tanya! :-) well actually she promised only eggs ... well ... we'll combine smth)

Ok, it's the primary wish list, there are dozens of secondaries still.
So, "First To Fulfill Only Than To Die" ;-)

Being Naked Being Free

in an ideal world we could swim naked in the sun legally and for free. sun on wet skin feels... spectacular. thousands of years ago you could do this, but now, we're civilized.

With all this heat that force you to strip off all your clothes everywhere you are I can't help but dreaming about naked beach hear in Tuscany, but there is smth. wrong with italians here, THERE IS NO PLACES to swim naked to be naked, it's awful!!! Or may be I just don't know where? Well if someone knows, PLEASE tell me!!!
Meanwhile all I have is my memories when me and my friends were on vacation in Crimea (Ukraine) and spend all the time on the awesome nudist beach sunbathing and swimming naked, there is no better feeling when you feel crystal warm salted water covering your body and all you want is just to swim forward, swim faster feeling your body cleave the sea like some kind of marine creature enjoying his life free wild and naked...

One more reason to love Todd Sanfield, no - 4!!!

Amore puro!!!

Harry Potter or Sexier Hotter???

Now, I understand why during all these years I've been watching Harry Potter movies, babe has grown up and became a cute twink, and GOOD FOR HIM!!!

Pretty good like for how many? 100 years?

It's been a lot that this lady vanished from the sight, and everything that she'd done now is an ad ... Well, CHER, you upsets me ...

yeah she's still Looking Good, Seeming Gorgeous - but where the hell her atomic powers to do some interesting stuff are???

Young & Beautiful & Innocent

So many time has passed, so many things have changed, but you're always in my heart... HOW I MISS YOU!!!

It sucks to be in three different parts of the world...

He's HOT, He Is Todd

Triple WOW!!! Todd Sanfield is a living proof that there is nothing more sexy and beautiful in this world than a man body with a cute face!!!

May be it's stupid but I'm definitely in love !!! If it's a sin to desire him I'm sooooo sinner!!!

My sins...

I don't want to be Madonna '90s, but sex is obviously to be the first to start...

I don't know how it has happened but last smth. like half a year, I've become tooooo obsessed about muscled men bodies and not only looking at them ...

First it was like yeah!!! cool!!! we're having sex, but than more time passed more guys were changed, I began to feel really uncomfortable about it, and one day I woke up with a thought "What the hell am I doing???!!!" That uncontrolled thing about wanting to have sex, having it with different (well gorgeous bodies) guys, began to occupy all my thoughts and a lot of my time also...

Even the last date when I promised to my best friend not to have sex, I repeated "I'll just talk, be nice and walk!!!" to myself like a zillion of times, we ended up in one empty dark park and he was doing a blow job to me, just after an hour when we met.

So I waked up in the morning being very angry with myself and wondering why I always finish doing it now?

May be it's all about that gay thing??? Or may be I have my slut period right now???

WELL ... I 'M SO SERIOUS TO STOP IT!!! I begin to feel empty...

P.S. Now also I have to tell my friend, that I failed, OOOOH I hate being weak...

Saying HI!

WOW, my blog!!! even such thing as me finished organising some web space dedicated to me, me and all the other stuff in this life thing. So I wish myself good start and hope to generate some tough posts in a while, well ...there surely will be some stupid posts, because such thoughts smts pass in my head too.