My sins...

I don't want to be Madonna '90s, but sex is obviously to be the first to start...

I don't know how it has happened but last smth. like half a year, I've become tooooo obsessed about muscled men bodies and not only looking at them ...

First it was like yeah!!! cool!!! we're having sex, but than more time passed more guys were changed, I began to feel really uncomfortable about it, and one day I woke up with a thought "What the hell am I doing???!!!" That uncontrolled thing about wanting to have sex, having it with different (well gorgeous bodies) guys, began to occupy all my thoughts and a lot of my time also...

Even the last date when I promised to my best friend not to have sex, I repeated "I'll just talk, be nice and walk!!!" to myself like a zillion of times, we ended up in one empty dark park and he was doing a blow job to me, just after an hour when we met.

So I waked up in the morning being very angry with myself and wondering why I always finish doing it now?

May be it's all about that gay thing??? Or may be I have my slut period right now???

WELL ... I 'M SO SERIOUS TO STOP IT!!! I begin to feel empty...

P.S. Now also I have to tell my friend, that I failed, OOOOH I hate being weak...